Thursday, November 23, 2017

THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME.

I just don't know what.

Depression?  Maybe.  I never really thought I had depression, although I was diagnosed with it at 13.  Back then I felt so many things.  When I was younger, I just felt so many things.  But now I feel nothingness -- this pervasive and frightening nothingness that has consumed me whole.  I no longer know who I am or what I feel. I am plagued by emptiness and indifference until nostalgia and romanticism hit.

I am equal parts romantic and nihilistic. 


5 comments:

  1. hi hi hi did you change your name? and/or, what was the title of the blog that I so wonderfully commented on? 2017 is way way too long ago to remember anything. i've been on and off of blogger since then; sometimes i write and sometimes i don't, but i always get comments

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    1. The Drifting Bookworm was a collection of vignettes from when I taught abroad. I believe you're thinking of freebirdflyaway, which I've renamed to flyfreeskygirl.

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  2. 'Twas called "The Drifting Bookworm", dearie.

    It's a private blog now, but here is the link: http://thedriftingbookworm.blogspot.com/
    Maybe she will let you in.

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    1. Hi, love. She's thinking of a different blog, one that pre-dated that one. It's long since been deleted.

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    2. Ah. I see! Well all the same, I love your various blogs. You have an incredible way with words.

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